I woke up with 15 messages!
It then dawned on me that i have a number of responsibilities on me that i have to carry out...

O levels
Family Stuff
Church planning
MCA's outing
Hockey trainings
School work

Everything came in at one shot.
Th sudden feeling that everything is pouring down on me came as a blow.
felt like i would not be able to carry it through.
but i know i would have to. Its my responsibilities, if it was given to me, it means i can handle them and i will be able to get over these. i just have to learn how to manage them.

Never thought i would say this: Sometimes i wish to re-live the past so that the present would not be like this. Yet i know we have to look forward into the future, for the future holds wonders of the past.

Work Work. Awesome. But was it the right decision? i have been asking myself this question over and over this whole week. I dont know the answer to it. Truthfully speaking i felt like i have been reminded to make the right decisions and scolded for making the wrong decisions this enitre week.

Hockey Polites coming, and im not ready. Fullstop. nothing to say about it. Can win then win. I must say though, i dont deserve to be in the team this year.

Before the holidays end i want to compose a song. Just once more if possible. If not after my O levels. There is an urge to pen my thoughts to sing out what i feel, but everytime i go home all i could think about is of this popping image in my mind. and my mind will grow tired from wondering. Well i have made my point across i jsut have to be patient and wait. for a pebble thrown into the river makes ripples and i hope it will create a wave from it. A postive one.

i made the decisions, i made the choices, i will just have to face them head on



Every wonder what you wanna acheive in the long-run? i clearly, have not...just hope i find out what that is soon.

Now just put one foot in front of the other,
and take each step with faith.
For every footstep made there is bound to be someone
there with you to catch you when you fall,
to assure you when you are in doubt
and to hug you when you need one.
at least thats what i was told.