I just don't understand.

Why do I love playing floorball more than hockey now?
Why is it that the team seems to fall apart AFTER the team talk?
Why does a LIE bring disturbance and chaos in the house?
Why am i feeling this way...MESSED UP?
Why....?
Why....?
Why....?

I have been asking so many questions to myself this few days till I lost track of the answers or fail to listen to the answers. I want to put everything aside right now...complete tmr's test and come and solve the rest of these question marks. Even keeping friendships and relationships is a question mark..everything is a question mark right now. i really need to evaluate this and maybe pen down my thoughts and goals. one for hockey, one for work, one for family and one for myself. Thats alot! ha!

When drving test is over tmr, one question mark would be solved. a pass or a fail? I WANNA PASS! I CAN PASS! I CAN DO IT!

Yesterday was a heavy night, everybody was down. tried to lighten the mood, but to no avail. could not bring myself to cheer everybody. How come i don't know what to do. How come i can't let go. How come i feel lost when it comes to this. How come i have to take this up..alone...i really need help but apparently i cant ask for help cos they are busy with FYP or work! Thanks. Pray abby. Pray.

Maybe chicken essence will help? heh! yea. shall take one tmr! (: pok pok keh!