a quick post

After today's training, i suddenly feel like i am not doing a good job as captain. i feel like i cant talk to the team properly..usually zu does it better. I cant take care of them properly, i cant train them properly. I cant meet their needs and requirements. HOW!?!

plus right now..its building up..the feeling of being alone again. why do i always feel this way. I hate it. but i guess some things in my life just would not change. i miss st nicks days. what they said was true...the atmosphere and environment cultivated there has not prepared us for the world outside of sng.

oh wells...time to get my work started.