Christmas is nearing...now im feeling christmassy...but i still want more of it. i wonder is it because i feel very ultra busy these days. its really tough to get everything done. Christams picnic games, the carolling, the new level at centre, new tuition, no hockey trainings, the projects and the christmas presents.

seriously this is the busiest christmas season i ever had....i think cos last time i was at missionary trips i dont really rmb bout having so many things in mind.

bav just msged yesterdy about no hockey teinings of the whole next term, seriously, i feel like quiting hockey. but i cant join floorball as trainings are on saturdays. i feel so lost without hockey...and no fun. i really dont like that feeling. hockey has become my friend, and love but cos of this i cant continue having the same feeling i had in playing hockey then it was in st nicks. sometimes i wonder if joining the national team would have helped me. if i had just stayed on for trainings when i was p6. ...if i had just gone and join SRC on sec 2. all the IFs comes out. it seems everything i have loved and cared for seems to fade away.

ok enough of these, i just wanna relax this hols, but dont really get it. oh wells!

lets think posititve.

losing the spirit i had in st nicks but i must bring it back! :)

anyway next year starting buddign group but no one seems to wanna join, phat. am i that bad. dotn wanna talk about it alr. just wanna think of christmas! ! ! haooy haoot season